It's been a while

There really shouldn't be anything that keeps me from writing, but lately that seems to be all I DON'T DO. I have to be inspired and this past year has been nothing but shit.... just plain SHIT. I've learned that some people really just want to watch the world burn....... I want to tell the world about this past year and scream at the mountain tops about how unjustly I've been looked down upon...... all people see is: a whore who cheated on her husband overseas. Nobody asked me..... why. I'm not the type of person to cheat. I don't cheat. I have to have a reason to cheat.... like the man has to have done something to push me to the point of where I feel like I have no other choice. I never intended for things to end up the way they did.... I never hurt anyone on purpose..... I just wanted to find happiness in an insanely miserable world. I should have never left for California. Tommy should have never gone to Kuwait, and as we try to figure out where to go from here.... at least we're doing it together. He should know me well enough to know why things ended up the way they did.... instead I've just been judged and put down, and I'm ready for the backlash that is about to come, because I know why things ended the way they did, and I'm good with God in my heart. I've asked for the proper forgiveness not just for me but for Tommy also because we destroyed this together so we have to put it back togther.... together. Nobody likes it? Too bad. It isn't your life. Finding out I have a mental illness and deal with a lot more than people know helps me figure out now what to do cause I'm more aware of my ups and downs, and we know now what sets me off...... abandonment. When I say don't leave.... don't leave.  I'm better now..... I'm falling in love all over again, and my family is actually together. Things will get better from here on out, because we want them to, and because we are in this together.

DLS @ The Copper Door

So last Wednesday I went to the Copper Door with the Dirty Little Secrets and took some pictures. It has been a blast to be around such amazing photogenic people. Actually, it's nice just being around people at all. So since I'm choosing people to be around, at least I'm choosing to be around people who are positive and know the importance of life. To have fun. To live life to its fullest while being responsible. I plan on taking more pictures and being there at every show I possibly can be. This is something amazing to be apart of, and it's something that I  most definitely want to share with you. :) Enjoy the pics :)

Up late baking and going through pictures from the DLS show at the Copper Door :) Here is a sneak peak :)

Haha..... yeah.

 So it's definitely been a lot longer than I thought it would be since I have written anything. Since March my husband had been deployed, and my family has moved across the country from Georgia to California. My baby isn't a little baby anymore. She is currently dancing in the living room with my other 'not so little' little 8 year old, Lily. It's amazing how things change and time flies. I try to tell this to any new mother, but most definitely cherish those perish early moments cause they're gone fast. My baby is 14 months. So lately I've taken to some photography and decided it is something that most definitely makes me happy. I really enjoy doing it, and I've had the opportunity to photograph an amazing group of ladies twice now. I must admit, it is going to take some time for me to get used to this camera and get better at doing this. I've always loved taking pictures though, and I'd like to think I have the ability to be great at it if I apply myself. So... here are some shots from the Dirty Little Secrets Burlesque Show at the One Eye'd Gypsy in Los Angeles :)

Mrs. Bunny Jones hosting the event while Mr. Barnaby Jones took advantage of black friday deals 

Everyone is Sick

So I've come to find that I need to use this more often especially if I want to ever make it as an author. I guess, it's finding time for it to be honest. I find time for my homework and manage close to a 4.0 GPA, which I must say I am very proud of. I got my first B two classes ago and about cried. It was my fault because I didn't realize class restarted when it did and ended up submitting a week's worth of homework late. Would have gotten an A otherwise. Frustrating, but didn't affect my GPA too much. I pride myself on doing good in school which I think is why I haven't had time for this. I've managed my time well, but I definitely haven't written anything in a while. I have a year left in school but once I'm done I will have a double major in History and Cultural Anthropology with a minor in International Management. Sounds cool. I hope I can actually do something awesome with it. I'm done with the history part, and I only have two classes left for my minor.
I think the reason I have time for this right now is because everyone, and I mean everyone, is sick and asleep. I've been doing laundry like never before and have been thrown up on about three times this morning. I'm actually staying upstairs with the baby, with her over a bunch of towels, just so I don't have to put on a shirt. It's pointless since she's just going to throw up on it. I figure being respectful though is important, because we have a sun room which would allow the neighborhood a view of my goods..... I have to have a shirt on if I'm downstairs. So upstairs I will remain so I can watch the little one and make sure she doesn't choke.
It's hard seeing your babies sick. It's even harder taking care of three that are sick, especially when one of them is the other adult. I hate seeing Tommy sick though, he's pitiful. It's definitely one of those days, so I'm sharing it with everyone and hoping that your day is uneventful in terms of illness or surprises. Unless they're good surprises, and in that case, rock on.

I really need to start writing again. I actually enjoy siting here and sharing my thoughts, so I'll try to make sure I do this more often.

<3

Lucy's Story

So I'm actually working on a WWII story also about the Ritter family from 1940 to 1945 and how all of the Ritter boys were drafted into the war. It's an amazing story of survival and will be told from the view of their little sister Lucy. It is not going to be first person, because I need to add in views of the Ritter boys as well, especially one who ended up in a concentration camp during 1944. I'm still working on the research for this story, but I'm sure once I get it all together, it's going to sound amazing :)
Take care! Marie

Finally Posting ;)

Okay everyone, please forgive me for nothing makes me feel more stupid than a blog site lol

I'm not very good at figuring certain things out online, blogs especially, but I know I need to do this in order to get the word about my book out :) and it's just nice to be able to write about stuff lol

So, I need reviews!

I need those of you that have actually purchased my book to give me a review.... even if it's a bad one. Preferably a good one honestly, but a review none the less. I poured a lot of myself into this book, and even though I know it's not for everyone it is a book I find that a lot of people would enjoy. It has suspense, mystery, and an obsessive love that some of us can relate to.

It has been my lifelong dream to be a writer, hell... ask anybody who's known me since I was a kid. I was writing short stories even then hoping that in the future I would end up being a best-selling author. I have more ideas but due to my current illness and pregnancy situations I have not been able to put time into them like I need. I've even decided to take a break from school because every day has been so unpredictable. It's been the worst feeling ever, but it would bring me joy and happiness to know that people are reading my book and actually enjoying it. Give it a try, it's only 2.99 anyway :) if it's terrible you can punch me.... in the arm.... softly...... ;)

I do hope everybody has a good Friday and if there ended up being enough demand I'd begin working on the 2nd one more quickly lol

After all, the first one will leave you hanging ;) So give it a read and let me know what you think. :) I would really appreciate it.

Thanks :) Marie

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